Matt got me a new cell phone. It has a camra : D

Today was not a good day. I feel fat and HATE HATE HATE it.

I went to school and work.

I tryed to donate blood in school but couldnt because my iorn is too low.
I really feel like there is no point for me to go to school anymore, I hate it, I hate being around people I dont like.I dont do anything in school anyways.Being there makes me so fucking pissed you dont even know.

i like clits

Im just relising that I only trust one person in my life, and that is Matt. All friends seem to be selfish drugies, and I dont want to be apart of that.

Ill be 18 in 21 more days!!!
I have a job interview next wednesday at the pharmacy at cvs: D I need a fucking job!
Im gonna go get my nails done, mabie tomorrow?
going to a bonfire tonight and i wanna get so fucking drunk : D

Im fucking annoyed I hate my boyfriends bestfriend. I fucking hate when anyone talks shit about me. I wish I was running on a tredmill right now. Speaking of tredmills Im going to the y again tomorrow with Heather. Matt made me eat lots today. I hate eating. I didnt see him Monday and only ate 1 meal, and lost weight, alos worked my ass off at the gym. Tomorrow I plain on loosing sum fucking fat! lol I really am siked about loosing weight. I wanna be skinny again so bad. The worst thing I ate today was chocolate but thats ok since about every thing eles was pretty healthy, and Tomorrow Im not eating so much and doing some work at da gym : D I serously plain on loosing 10 lbs and so help me god it will happen. Geee Im starting to talk wayy too much about weight like my old self. Anyways, Hung out with Matt after school today. Good times good times. I go to sleep and yeah thats my life peaceout

but i wish i could just puke up everything. i feel sick and im fat n i wanna be skinny again : )

*Matt and I went to the museaum of Science yesterday. I had a half day of school.We were on the trains for like 2 hours since we got wronge directions, and yah know, got lost.

*So Im pretty pissed I got my bloody vajayjay earlyer.

*I was telling Matt yesterday that I think I am more really confused then compleatly bi because I know that I am with Matt I see myself more with him, but I still love girls. I never got one of those connections that I got with Matt though. Ussaly If I have a thing for a girl I like her and she dosnt like me back or she likes me and I dont like her back its never really worked out. I wouldnt say Im straight though since I probley wont stop thinking about eatting a girl out until I do it.haha

*Im serously missing hanhing out with alot of people. I feel like I used to have lots of friends and now I dont have as much as I do. I need to hang out with Max, Kerren, Kati (cuz I miss that girl like crazy), Jill, Nicole, Dave, Justin, and anyone eles I cant think of right now. I really feel like I dont have a life as much as I used to. I'm really sick of being bored. It mostly cuz I dont have a job and everyone eles dose or I dont have a car and they live far away. I NEED a job but there is no where to work that is close. There really isnt, but Im trying.

Yay no school! Im getting a new coat today. Its mad cute, red, and from Forever 21.: D
In my opinion do not go see Santa clause 3. I saw the movie with Matt last night and it sucked. I mean yeah there were a few funny parts but for the most part it was a bad movie.Could be because Im comparing 3 to 1 and 2. I love Santa Clause 1. Ive seen that movie so much that I know every word to the movie. I remember in 7th grade the class was watching Santa Clause 1, and alot of people got mad at me because I was the annoying girl knowing all the lines to the movie.
I think Matt and I are going on a date tonight. I hope sooooo it be mad fun! I think we might go eat at the charliehorse which has an arcade!!!!
So if anyone ANYONE would like to go see new found glory with me on nov 15th should deff come with me, because I wanna go badly but have no 1 to go with. If I miss them Ill be so pissed.

I wish I could just leave. Go some where for a week, not tell anyone why or where I am, and just get away from everyone.

Im wicked confused with everything right now. I really need to talk to someone who understands me but I dont know if anyone understands me. The only person I can think of telling is Heather and god know where she is.
I guess you might think its a dumb thing to get worked up over but it really isnt dumb to me. The only person I can think of who might understand is Heather, but she wont answer her fucking phone.